Hi ladies! Whoa. I can't believe I am already 16 weeks today, but also feel like the 40 week mark is so far away. Doesn't pregnancy always go so fast, yet so slow? I just keep reminding myself that it's a long journey until the end and that the wait is actually a gift. It means more time to experience the miracle that pregnancy is, and also more time with my two boys because we all know how crazy the first year of motherhood is when adding a new baby to the crew. Nevertheless, I wanted to update y'all on where I'm at with my third pregnancy adventure at 16 weeks! Here we go...

Current Disposition: Mentally, I feel so much more like myself. In the first trimester, I definitely had some pregnancy blues. I felt a little down, a little distant, a little less like myself. I was not motivated to do any sort of work, and I felt helpless in the sense that I couldn't take care of my kids like I normally can.
I can't point at what actually caused these pregnancy blues. It could have been the grey skies that persisted in Dallas through the winter season for, what felt like, several months. It also could have been my changing hormones; hormones can make you feel a little down and not like yourself, and that might have been the culprit. It also could have been the fact that I felt horrible; nauseous, sick to my stomach and fatigued beyond being able to lift an arm to put on a show for the kids. Whatever the cause of my pregnancy blues, suffice it to say that they are gone. Woo! At 16 weeks, I feel energized, motivated, happy; almost as if I'm not pregnant.
The weather has also changed and spring has sprung here in Dallas, which is making me feel even more joyful. I wake up with energy, and feel like I can and want to workout. I also want to play with my kids and get outside with them to adventure as much as possible! Also, the mental weight of having three kids isn't weighing as heavily on me, as it did in the first trimester. I attribute this feeling in the first trimester to my inability to care for my two boys properly; so the thought of adding a third seemed insurmountable. Now that I am out of that funk, I'm starting to feel like supermom once again. Having three kids is indefinitely the path that God has laid out for me, and one that I can absolutely thrive in. This is what I was made to do!

Energy Level: Okay, so I just talked about this, but yes, my energy is definitely back. I feel *that* second trimester energy that I love and adore from my prior pregnancies. I was hoping it would hit right around the 13 week mark, but this time around, it took me until (really) 16 weeks to get there. Point is, I'm there! And I'm thankful that God has blessed me with energy!

Diet: My diet has been hit or miss. Truth be told, I am not as strict with my diet as I was during my second pregnancy, but not as lax as I was during my first pregnancy. I probably sound like a broken record. But I'll recap it again... in my first pregnancy, I gained 60 pounds with zero exercise and eating my way for two through those 9 months. Vowing to never let myself go again, my second pregnancy was entirely different. I exercised regularly and ate very clean. I still managed to gain 33 healthy pounds. Rewind back to my first pregnancy, I lost all of those 60 pounds effortlessly within a year, while with the second pregnancy, I thought I would lose the weight within weeks, if not by baby's 3 month birthday. But no. My body retaliated and I started gaining the weight I had lost after delivery at 6 months postpartum. Moral of the story is that with my third pregnancy I have learned that your body is going to do what your body is going to do. You can try and control what you eat, but if your body wants and needs to gain weight, it's going to do that. Sure. Eating healthy makes me feel way better than eating poorly does. But I also have the perspective from both pregnancies to know that eating what my body needs rather than depriving in order to avoid weight gain is what I am going to focus on this time around. But that is me. I am not a fitness pregnancy model, nor am I striving to be. I strove to be last pregnancy and it came back to bite me in my big ol' postpartum bottom. So humbling, that I'm really just giving my pregnancy diet/weight to God and trusting in my body's signals to know what I should and shouldn't eat. No, I'm not scarfing down bagels and cinnamon rolls (because my body doesn't need that; some women's bodies do!), but indulging in a bite or two of sweets then gearing it back to my glowing green smoothie? You bet. I'm enjoying my diet a little more than I otherwise would when I'm not pregnant.

Weight: So how has this diet, being a little looser than my second pregnancy diet and a little stricter than my third pregnancy diet faired for me in terms of the number on the scale? Well, I am measuring very close to where I was with my second pregnancy, believe it or not. I may be 1 pound heavier, but once again, I'm thankful the scale is working (somewhat) in my favor. But let's be honest, does the scale ever work in our favor during pregnancy?  It feels like I just got back to my pre-pregnancy weight of 130 pounds when I found out that I was pregnant with our third (this also happened to me when I found out I was pregnant with our second); jokes on me. But my point is that I was so used to seeing the numbers on the scale go down; and they finally went down; all the way down, and just when I started to bask in my weight loss, I got pregnant, and albeit, the number started to go up. Mentally, this can make a girl feel defeated. Some days I am, but I know this path all too well. I will gain weight. I will gain weight. And... I will lose the weight. Not sure when, but it will happen. Once again, my mind feels like it is in the right place this time around. Yes, I still hop on the scale totally naked in the morning (don't even put on my Apple Watch!), suck my tummy in, close my eyes, then open one and hope that the number has magically gone down, dare I say. Most often it's gone up, and this is a tough reality to face, but I know that that is what my body is supposed to be doing, rest assured.

Exercise: Enough about weight, let's talk about exercise. For me, exercising during pregnancy really is all about getting my endorphins going and seeking that feel-good after-exercise feeling. Exercise gives me more energy thought the day, which means a better attitude towards my kids and also the motivation to do more with them, such as adventures, walks to the park, playing outside, etc. So for me, exercising during pregnancy isn't really an option, instead, it is something I seek to achieve every day for the reasons I just mentioned. What I've found to be key in consistent exercise, is to first and foremost, remember how exercise makes you feel, and the secondly, to find exercise that you love and want to come back to. For so long, I have loved running, but since we moved to Dallas, I've yet to find a running trail that I like. Not only that, but running has felt pretty hard on my body. Everything is jiggling, I have a groin tear that is exacerbated during pregnancy, my ligaments tend to hurt more, and I feel super stiff the following day. I still appreciate my runs, but I've realized that there are many other forms of exercise and fun classes to experiment with that can be fun, and potentially not as hard on my body. One of these lower impact workouts I've come to love during (and also before) pregnancy is spin class. The YMCA in Dallas has a great spin instructor, and it is the perfect duration (45 minutes) and perfect cadence to allow for that feel-good feeling, while being lighter on my body. In addition to spin, I love barre and step class. Any sort of class, is great for me during pregnancy.

Doctor's Appointments: A few weeks back, I had my blood drawn for genetics testing. We received the callback and were classified as very low risk. Very thankful for the news. The nurse also almost gave me the gender results, but I stopped her as soon as she said, "And we have the gender results..." So, they have the gender results too, but once again, we aren't finding out. Wow, does it make it hard to not find out knowing that those results are already ink pressed on a piece of paper somewhere. Nevertheless, we are so excited for our surprise! As for upcoming doctor's appointments, I have the 17 week appointment next week, followed by the 21 week anatomy scan coming up. Prayers for that!

That's all for now, ladies! Can't wait to share more along the way.

xx,

Brooke

​Current disposition: I'm starting to feel more and more like myself. I definitely have a lot of emotions going into this third pregnancy, and maybe more than I'd care to admit. It's in my personality to clam up when I too many emotions begin to overload my mind, and I feel like that is what has happened since the beginning of my pregnancy journey. This pregnancy decision (having a third child) and this pregnancy itself feels slightly different because I am doing something that is definitely outside of my comfort zone! It is different than what I had growing up, coming from a two-sibling family. To a small degree, I feel like I'm out on a limb. Sometimes it feels amazing, and other times it feels scary.
Having two kids was always in the cards, so long as my body permitted it. And it did. Having three kids was something I thought that I wanted since I met and married my husband - and everything in my tells me that it's the right decision, - yet there are still things that scare me about it. Three kids means getting three kids dressed, three kids fed, three kids into the car, three kids buckled in their carseats, three kids out of the car, three kids nighttime routines, three kids into college... you get the point. It's already hard with two, and that didnt stop us from having a third, but I guess I am trying to say that there is definitely some anxiety around the reality that we will have a third come September. Once again I want to reiterate that I have ZERO regret that we went for a third. In fact, I have never been more sure of anything. I am just scared because now that I know what it takes to raise TWO kids; there are moments when THREE kids seems like it'll be a lot.. I guess I'm really needing to lean on God in these moments and remember that He put it on our hearts to have three, and really remind myself that THIS exact situation is what I was made to do. A three kid mom is who I am!

Energy level: Oh gosh. Well, to be honest, I don't know what it's like to have full energy anymore. It feels like it's been so long since I've gotten through a day feeling "good" that I don't even remember what it feels like ha! My first trimester was FULL of fatigue, and fatigue that I gave into. With my second pregnancy, I definitely felt tired in the first trimester, but I didn't give in to the tiredness. I maintained my exercise, kept doing my outings, and didn't really rest - probably as much as I should have. When the second trimester rolled around (right at 13 weeks), I instantly felt energized and carried on per usual. This pregnancy feels different. The fatigue was almost unbearable - like I couldn't get myself off of the couch some days. I was able to somewhat consistently workout, and that gave me some energy, but not like it did in my second pregnancy. Having two kids at home, I had to have grace with myself for allowing myself to take days off as a mama, and to allow my kids to watch a bit more TV than I would have liked them to.
​Now that I am in the second trimester, I expected my energy to return to usual, and maybe even anticipated heightened energy, as I had felt with my second pregnancy (can't remember what I felt during my first pregnancy - it was a blur!). But, that hasn't happened yet. I do feel much more energized than I did from weeks 8 to 12 weeks, but at 14 weeks, I don't have the kind of energy that I had hoped for. That said, I am still anticipating the return of energy, just recognizing that it might come a little later than I originally thought. My mother-in-law reminds me that pregnancy is much harder and more exhausting when you are running around after two young kids! She should know too, she is a mother to FIVE. ​

Skin: My skin has finally stopped breaking out. The first trimester was horrible in terms of acne! I haven't had that kind of acne ever in my life, and it certainly hasn't been as bad during either of my two pregnancies. Safe to say, the acne is clearing up and I'm starting to get that pregnancy glow! Woo woo. I've also noticed that my hair is shinier and growing like crazy - my hair dresser even noted that I have a lot more new growth coming in.

Workouts: I'm actually surprised at how often I've been going to the YMCA to workout - even through the death of what was the first trimester. Working out was one thing that made me feel better during the first trimester. I maybe felt like I was going to barf mid-spin and probably went at half the rate I usually do. Nonetheless, working out boosted my energy and somehow helped (a tad) with my nausea. My favorite workouts this pregnancy have been spin, barre and walking on the treadmill. During my first pregnancy, my working out was non-existent. During my second pregnancy, I ran at least three days a week, 3 miles per day up until about 20 weeks, then switched to step class and spin. This pregnancy, I definitely don't feel as comfortable running. Maybe it's the extra weight, but for whatever reason, I don't feel as comfortable as I did during the second pregnancy to run. I had this same sensation during my first pregnancy. On the other hand, spinning has been an amazing workout. It is more doable because you are essentially sitting. My heart rate also doesn't get as elevated, which was probably a good thing during the first trimester. Barre has also been great for toning and what not.

Body: Well, well, well.. my body has felt like it has changed. I have that bloated feeling, you know when you feel like a whale and it makes you want to sit on the couch all day? Yeah, you'd think that feeling like a whale would make me want to workout more, but no, it makes me feel lazier. My body changes - specifically bigger thighs, way bigger boobs, and even bigger arms has happened a lot sooner than in my other pregnancies. Unfortunately, I am one of those women that does pack on some extra cushion during pregnancy. It is my bodies way of doing pregnancy, and there really isn't anything that I can do about it. I know this because during my second pregnancy, I worked out constantly and ate very clean, and I still had the thigh growth and bodily changes of gaining that extra cushion. That said, the increase in fat stores happened later on in my pregnancy. This pregnancy, I've felt that fat gain sooner. I'm not sure if it's because my hormones are slightly different this time around or because I had more lag time between my pregnancies or because I just came off losing all of the baby weight. Whatever the reason, my body certainly feels "squishier" as my toddler has told me. HE even notices! No joke. Made me self-conscious for sure, but he also reminded me that it's a good thing because I have a baby. Such a sweetie.

Life as a mom of two and pregnant with our third has my feeling all sorts of crazy lately, especially through the first trimester! Now that the second trimester is underway, I feel like I can finally wrap my head (and emotions) around the idea that we will welcome another little one into our family in a few short months. With that, I feel a bigger sense of responsibility and have become even more cognizant of the mom I want to be, especially when it comes to purchasing "stuff" for my growing family. And a big part of that stems from the desire to purchase more thoughtfully, and to help create a planet that is beneficial for my babies.

While I can't do everything, I can do something, which is why I have partnered with EarthHero, a company that puts thought into our tomorrow's and into the future of a children's planet.

I love EarthHero because the brands they carry must meet certain criteria, and all must be sustainable in one way or another. This includes brands with:

• Better Materials (organic hemp, bamboo, sustainably harvested wood, up cycled cotton)
• Cleaner Production (low impact dyes, energy efficient, sustainable manufacturing, handmade)
• Lower Carbon Footprint (offset carbon, recycled packaging, recyclable packaging 
• High Quality (recycled stainless steel, sustainable lifestyle, wool. sustainable harvested rubber)
• Less Waste (compostable, BPI certified compostable, recyclable, curbside recyclable)

As such, I wanted to compile my Top 7 Favorite EarthHero /Sustainable Products for the entire family.

I carry a stainless steel water bottle around with my 24/7, especially while pregnant. During pregnancy, water consumption is even more important, and it is recommended you consume 12 glasses of water per day. That means 50% more water than when you are not pregnant. Whether I carry strictly water or lemon infused water, this stainless steel water bottle is a must. Not only that, but my kids also love it and love having the water on-hand whenever we are out and about.

When it comes to babies and their onesies, many modern-day moms wonder if buying organic cotton matters. In my opinion, the answer is yes. Organic does matter. Baby's skin is much more delicate and porous than adult skin, which means that babies are more susceptible to the effects of harmful chemicals. Organic cotton is free of synthetic pesticides and fertilizers, which is good for your baby, and is also better for the environment. Lastly, did you know organic cotton lasts five times longer than regular cotton? Investment recouped! This Born to Explore Organic Cotton Onesie is totally worth it for all of the above reasons.

These BiOBUDDI Plant Based Baby Blocks are a great toy for the entire family. Made in the Netherlands, these blocks are made from 97% Sugarcane plants, which includes their stickers too! Say goodbye to plastic and hello to these new, improved and eco-friendly blocks. There are several different versions, including letters, animals and shapes! My boys love them, and I personally love that there is a learning aspect involved with the use of letters. Go, mama, go.

I am a huge proponent of encouraging baby to feed him or herself at an early age to help establish fine motor skills. But, there is one problem: the mess. However, with EZPZ's Silicone Happy Mat, which is 100% food-grade silicone - naturally unbreakable and toxin free - it makes mealtimes easy and mess-free with their sustainable suction mat. Almost impossible for tiny hands to tip over! Both boys love this product, as shown in the photos.

Feeding kids, much less babies, with plastic utensils is something that drives me a bit crazy. Do I own plastic kids' plates, cups and utensils: yes. Does it make me cringe on the daily: yes. This time around, I vow to change that. Plastic tends to erode overtime and may leech chemicals into your food that can be endocrine disruptors, yuck! That is why using alternative materials matters. This is why I love these Kids Bamboo Utensils Forks and Spoons Set. Completely BPA and phthalate free. Not to mention, heart and stain resistant, and dishwasher safe.

I love backpacks. Not sure if it's because they remind me of back-to-school, something I lived for as a kid and teen, and even as an adult, but it's true, I love me a good backpack. And, with a newborn in our horizon, on-the-go storage is a necessity. What makes this Whittier Kids Backpack even better than most is the fact that it is made from 100% recycled polyester. Not to mention, United by Blue is a certified B corp, which means their mission is to basically make the world a better place (a certification that is ​very hard to come by).

These Peru Bamboo Polarized Sunglasses are for mama. Like backpacks, sunglasses are something I cannot get enough of. Maybe it's the Dallas sun or maybe it's my light green eyes - whatever the case, polarized sunglasses during the spring and summer are a must! What's cool about Solo Eyewear is that they donate 10% of their profits to eye care initiatives for those who need it. SOLO’s outreach has already touched the eyes of 13,000 individuals across 32 countries! Not just that, but the temples of their glasses are made from 100% repurposed bamboo, while the frames are handcrafted black cellulose acetate with metal trim. Plus, they are polarized. 

Woo hoo! Here we go again... baby number three is on his or her way, debuting mid September! We are thrilled that we are adding another kiddo to our family, and consider this pregnancy a huge blessing! I know that bringing a third child into a family brings up more questions that not... Was it planned? Are you trying for a girl? And all of those things. Because of that, I'll share more below about our decision to go from a family of four to a family of five. Hope you all enjoy it and stay tuned for more pregnancy updates in the future!

Yes, it was planned! It was actually the most planned pregnancy that Ryan and I have had to date. Believe it or not, our first two pregnancies were not as planned as this one. With Rhett, our first, I became pregnant completely unplanned, literally right after our honeymoon and in my first week of business school at Georgetown. Talk about a surprise! Then with Vance, our second, we were open to the idea of having a second kid and without thinking about it, BOOM, we got pregnant within the first month.

When it came to baby number three, it felt like the biggest decision out of the pregnancies so far. Ryan and I knew without a doubt that we would have at least two kids when we got married. Ryan comes from a big family of five and I come from a family of two, so having two kids was something that we kind of decided on autopilot. Once we had our second and realized how busy and difficult, but also how much fun it is to have multiples, we weren't sure about a third. However, as time progressed and Vance grew out of the baby stage and Rhett out of the terrible two's, we knew we had room for one more.

We had a big conversation about the prospect of having three kids, and ultimately decided it would be a wonderful idea. We started trying ASAP, which I will talk about later.

It took us three months to get pregnant.. or maybe it was four? I kind of forget, but it was either three or four.

Like I said before, this pregnancy was the most planned out of all of our pregnancies. It was something that we consciously decided to start trying for. So of course I felt like I had to plan how I would get pregnant, so that it could give us the highest chances of happening in what I hoped would be the shortest amount of time.

To be quite honest, I had heard stories about women getting pregnant with their first two kids so easily, then on the third kid it took longer for whatever reason. These stories stuck out in my mind and I wondered if I, too, would encounter this situation. Because of that, I wanted to take conception seriously. Not only that, I hoped our three kids would be close in age, which urged us to try sooner than later.

To start, I downloaded the Flo app. I know there are probably better apps out there, but this app worked wonderfully for me. Essentially, you can track your cycle and the app tells you when you are more fertile than not.. aka it tells you your fertile window. The app helped me in more ways than one, but for starters it helped me figure out my cycle length. Turns out my period was not 28 days, which I originally thought, but instead it was 32 days! I thought I was pregnant month one of trying because my period didn't come for four days, but lo and behold my cycle started on every 31st or 32nd day. If you are trying to get pregnant, I highly recommend downloading an app to track your cycle!
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Lastly, I became educated on the cervical discharge method, I think it is called. This helped me understand naturally when I was ovulating. This method was the most clear to me. Partnering this with the app, I knew - so long as everything was healthy - that it would only be a matter of time before I became pregnant!

I came down with a stomach virus while on vacation in Aspen, Colorado. We were visiting my parents for the holidays and I had the worst heartburn after eating a dinner of lasagna and drinking wine. My heartburn was so bad that I couldn't fall asleep that night and got sick multiple times. The following day I felt very sick to my stomach. So sick, again, that I threw up. We were supposed to go skiing, but Ryan called it off given the state that I was in. We went back to my parents house where I literally spent the majority of the day in the bathroom. You may be thinking, well duh, she must be pregnant. Well, no. This was violent sickness and was likely way too early to be morning sickness.

So that whole day I was sick as a dog, on the couch and in the bathroom. It lasted about 24 hours before I started feeling a bit better, but the nausea would not go away. The following night, I figured I could start eating, yet I had the worst heartburn once again and had trouble sleeping that night.

Between the heartburn and the nausea, I knew something was up. I had marked on my calendar the date in which I could take an early pregnancy test and that day finally arrived. I didn't want to tell Ryan that I needed to go buy a pregnancy test because every time I did, he wondered why I couldn't wait until my missed period. Guys don't understand this type of stuff. So I knew I had to secretly get my hands on a pregnancy test.

We had scheduled lunch at a fun restaurant in Aspen called Mezzaluna just before my sister and her husband flew back home. We were circling the area to find parking and couldn't find a spot. All while Ryan was trying to find a parking spot, I was trying to find a place that I could secretly get a pregnancy test at. Bingo. A City Market was diagonal from the restaurant. Right when I saw it, I shouted, "I'll put our name in at the restaurant and you go find a parking spot with the boys!" Rhett was asleep in the back of the car so I knew this would be the perfect window of opportunity.

I ran into the restaurant, put our name is as quickly as I could - a 15 minute wait, phew - and ran as fast as I could across the street to City Market. I found the women's health aisle and quickly grabbed a First Response Manual Test that included three sticks. I ran into the restroom and took the test. I waited and waited, heart pounding, knowing I needed to get back to the restaurant ASAP before my family suspected something. So I stuck the test in my purse - actually in a workout shoe that was in my purse, face up, as to not let the urine drip anywhere it wasn't supposed to.

As I paced back to the restaurant, I kept checking the test and finally... saw a faint, faint line. I was excited, but also this happened to me last month, which ended sadly in a chemical pregnancy (more on that later). To be sure, the next day I took another test and it came up bright and positive! I proceeded to take one more test and got another bright pink double line.

This question is funny, but I also understand why so many people would think to ask it. Because we have two boys, the assumption is that we are hoping for a girl on baby number three. The assumption, unfortunately, is incorrect. The reason why we are having three kids is because we want three kids, not because we want a girl. Would I love to have a girl? Of course! I would love to have a girl for so many reasons. It would be so fun to experience a little girl, and to have a daughter for life. At the same time, I love boys. I have always wanted boys, I feel like I get along with boys, I feel like I know boys. I have a boy name picked out in my head and I can't wait to use it. Honestly, I feel like I am probably having a boy and would be totally shocked - and so so happy - if I was having a girl. There are fun things about having each gender, and in totality, I consider having a baby a blessing, whether it be a boy or girl. I pray for a healthy baby. I pray for a strong baby. I pray for God to give us exactly what we need to complete our family!

My initial answer is no, we are not going to have more kids. Having two kids was a huge adjustment. The biggest adjustment was my ability to give enough of myself to each child... to give them the kind of one on one attention that they deserve. I come from a two-sibling family and my parents were able to give us the world. Experience-wise and opportunity-wise, we were able to participate in so many unique activities. My parents always attended every sporting event, coached our teams, we went on amazing trips, were exposed to travel at an early age. Not only that, but financially we were more than comfortable and able to have even more opportunities - because of my dad's hard work, but also because my parents limited their family to two children. 
When it comes to having four kids, I guess I struggle with the idea that I can give 100% of myself to that many children. I have also heard the argument that four is better than three because at the point in which you have four kids, you are finally able to "let go" as a parent. You don't worry about the small stuff as much as you did with having three kids. With that said, all I know is that I have a perfectionist personality which can be a danger zone as a mother, especially a mother to a large family. I may feel the need to be perfect, organized, 100% nurturing, giving all of the time no matter how many kids I have - whether it be three or four, which is why I believe that three is a great number for us. 
When logic sets in and I realize that I want to be able to give so much to my kids, and not just that, I want to be able to have a sectioned off life with my husband. This is where I feel like three kids is the perfect number... for us! So ya, four kids is probably not on the horizon.
To be honest, quotes that I hear from people often stick out in my mind. And I was talking to a family friend at my sister's wedding who is the father to five beautiful, amazing children who are all grown now. He was reflecting back on having five kids and he told me point blank that five was too many. Not that I was considering having five kids, but with that statement I took it to heart and really want to consider what number is good for our family that will give us the kind of life that *we* want. Again, everyone is different, and some people do great with a big family, like my mother-in-law, who is a rockstar mom to five amazing kids. That said, she has uniquely high energy; something that I lack!
Three is more than I had in my family, so I feel like I am doing something that is of my own and on my heart, and it is less than Ryan's family. It feels like the perfect happy medium :) Let's just hope we aren't having twins haha! Just kidding, it would be a blessing. But seriously! 

No! No! And more no! Once again, everyone is different, but not finding out the gender is possibly my favorite part of the entire pregnancy journey. I completely understand why people find out early; in fact, I feel like it could help with bonding and planning, and is just as exciting in a different way. But, my most vivid memories of both birth experiences was the total surprise that shocked our hearts when we realized who and what gender we were meeting for the first time. It allowed me to be so present with my emotions and I can't imagine it any other way.

I tend to overthink things and this is one part of my pregnancy that I don't overthink. I don't overthink the gender. I tend to have strong internal preferences that I dare not share with the world, should I be wrong. With my first two pregnancies, my internal preferences were 100% spot on. I had pretty intense feelings about my first two being boys, and I honestly cannot believe that I was right on. And it wasn't that I didn't want a girl. I would love a girl, but it was almost this preset instinct that overtook me when people told me they thought I was having a girl, which happened often. I had this internal radar go off, telling me no, they are wrong. And boy, was I right.
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I'm not sure where that radar is at the moment for this pregnancy. I had strong feelings about a girl the other day, so I will keep you posted. But no, definitely not finding out the gender because for us, personally, it was so much fun to wait!

My sister, Taylor Weaver, RD, and I actually sell physician grade supplements on our Postpartum Slimdown website. Because she is a licensed practitioner, we are able to. They are more potent and include less fillers/crap than generic supplements. Prior to conception, I've been taking the Prenatal Pro - Essentials Packets from Designs by Health, and have continued taking them. They have been amazing  and no hints of nausea (so far). I also, occasionally, take the Smarty Pants Prenatal Vitamins. They are so delicious; I can't get enough. I also take the Hi-Po Vitamin D drops. All of our supplements can be found here. Oh yes, and I also take CALM, which is a mixture of calcium and magnesium. It helps me sleep at night and keeps me calm ;)

Well, I have a lot of things that I love about being pregnant. First, it is the prospect of bringing a human being into this world. The fact, that I get to participate in life's creation. To me, it is pure magic and I thank God that I am a woman - for many reasons, but above all, because I get to create life and be a mother. 

I also love having a big belly! I love feeling your baby inside of you; when they kick and knowing that you are protecting them from the world outside. It feels like a microcosm for motherhood.

Pregnancy also reminds me that I am such an important part of these kids' lives if not the most important part. It gives me courage to be a stay-at-home mom. It reminds me just how good I am at being a mother. It discounts all of the things I doubt about myself as a mother on a daily basis, then reminds me that I am better because I am a mother. Again, it is the magic. That pure magic that makes you feel alive! Pregnancy reminds me of that, and of course the belly signifies it all.

I love most everything about pregnancy. The hard part about pregnancy for me is the postpartum period. Postpartum depression and postpartum weight loss are two of the hardest things I've dealt with - especially postpartum depression. I have a post on it HERE. Postpartum depression is so scary and is more than just feelings of sadness; not to discount any baby blues that women might go through. Postpartum depression is different in that it literally feels like you are stuck in another quadrant of life that you cannot escape. Like in a room with no windows and no way out.

In addition, having to lose the baby weight is something I struggle with. I have a hard time trusting that my body knows what it is doing, and honestly I also get jealous of other women who lose weight quickly because I am not one of those women. It literally takes me over a year or until I stop breastfeeding, and that is something I just need to know and understand about my pregnancies. I hope I have the hindsight and foresight to really understand my postpartum journey this time around and to have a little more grace with myself and less comparison against other women. It's hard when you are on the losing side of postpartum weight loss, but I just need to trust in my body and know that with time I will be able to lose the weight!

Again, I am the worst with weight gain, as many of you saw with my second pregnancy. Weight gain and body changes is emotionally really hard on me and I wish I was one of those women who confidently knew her body would go back to normal in time. Instead, I tend to stress out thinking I can control everything - and weight is one thing I felt like I could control during my last pregnancy so long as I ate healthy and exercised. What I learned from my second pregnancy is the fact that sometimes you cannot control pregnancy weight, and more than that sometimes you cannot control postpartum weight loss. I learned this the hard way with baby number two. I most definitely learn something new with each pregnancy.

Again, with my first pregnancy I gained 60 pounds! I wasn't exercising and I was pretty lax with my diet. I wasn't eating late night ice cream and binging on donuts, but I was lax with my diet and without exercise managed to pack on sixty pounds. For my size, I knew that was too much weight so I vowed with my second pregnancy that I would do better. And I did. I gained 33 pounds. I ate healthy and exercised. Because I gained 33 pounds, I knew I would lose it quickly after delivery. I ate healthy and figured breastfeeding would help me drop the weight. Wrong. I ended up gaining weight at six months postpartum from breastfeeding hormones. It drove me crazy!  I had done so much to control my weight loss, and what I didn't realize is that it was outside of my control. I was retaining 15 pounds for nursing and there was nothing I could do to stop that.

So this time around, I hope I can maintain the perspective that there is a high likelihood that I may retain weight while breastfeeding again. The knowledge I have going into this third pregnancy is the fact that I will lose the baby weight eventually, and that I know how to lose it using our Postpartum Slimdown.

Enjoy it! Your first pregnancy is so new and fresh. I was literally obsessed with all things pregnancy. I wanted pregnancy books, I wanted pregnant friends, I was obsessed with helping plan my baby shower and baby registry. I looked at and messed with my registry several times a day because I was so excited about baby stuff and the thought of meeting a little baby!

I advise you to hold onto that enthusiasm and ride the wave! The first pregnancy is special for that reason.
At the same time, don't be a premadonna. I was a total premadonna with my first pregnancy. I felt like the world needed to revolve around me because I was pregnant. That is fine because you don't know any differently, but know that you will not be pregnant after the baby comes, so be humble and kind! So I guess having perspective that you aren't the only thing that matters. You are pregnant, but life still carries on.

Lastly, don't let people's comments about how babies change your life effect you negatively. Babies change your life, but in a positive way. Sure, there are things you need to get used to, but it is all apart of what makes parenthood the greatest job on earth. If being a parent is so hard, why do people have multiple children? You got this!

I know it may be hard, but try not to worry about how having a second child will change your relationship with your first child. I had major agony over what having a second child would do to my relationship with my first. And yes, I'll tell you that the relationship does change, but it also enhances. Don't fret, you will settle into life as a mother of two and it will be just as wonderful in a new way. But also, be prepared and open to the idea of change because each time you bring a baby into the world a new dynamic transpires. Ride the wave and know this journey of having multiples is unique! After all, you are a seasoned mother now.